Girl Gets Ghosted. That Shit Sucks.

Not telling someone how you honestly feel about them is the biggest regret you can do to yourself. It was something I did to myself. I had to learn the hard way. I started catching feelings for a guy last November and I failed to mention to him how I felt months later. I was scared; I was nervous. I never knew how to tell him. Why was I so afraid? I took the chats and snaps we had for granted. Smh. Although it’s too late because we’re not on talking terms and I’ll probably never see him again, I had to write about it. I have to finally be honest with myself and let him go for my own sanity. I used to think to myself, what if I had a second chance? What would have happened? What would I have said? How would he have reacted? Would we still be friends to this day? Was he even my friend? I may never know the answer to those questions, and that’s what scares me the most. The mere fact that I never received any closure was baffling. I can’t even put it into words. He just disappeared. Nowhere to be seen or heard from ever again. He left me on read and hurt my emotional state of mind in a way that I’ve never felt about someone before. It was a slap in the face. Did I just get ghosted? I let you read my poetry. I opened up to you, and you dipped out on me. I don’t understand why you couldn’t be honest with me? We are young, but how childish can you be? My outlook on guys forever changed drastically, and I feel more vulnerable now than ever. I don’t want to end this piece on a rough note because you know that I know you’re a genuine person. You may never read this but, I hope you get whatever it is you want in life. I know you’ll make it. I wish you the best.

Getting ghosted made me go crazy. I would react to things before listening or fully understanding what I was being told. I lost myself mentally. But here I am. Alive and well.

Topics like heartache/heartbreak are touchy, and sometimes we’re reluctant to discuss them because it may hit home and we don’t want to revisit the past. It’s liberating to be open with yourself and share your truth, your story.

I hope my piece brings you empathy. We are all going through something. I know you’ll make it out alive just like I did!

Until next time beautiful people!

XO- BRIT <3