I Lost My Mind This Whole Week. That's Just The Motions of Life.

I lost myself for a minute. It’s like I had no drive to do anything. I was saying I was okay... but knew for a fact something was missing. My drive for success seemed fleeting. I didn’t know what to do. I lost all hope/faith in myself. What is my life coming to? Judgment from myself was holding me back. But today I choose to take a stance and end the self-pity that I’ve been holding on to for quite some time. My friend Sammie stopped by for a little last night, and he gave me some heartwarming advice. I have to just keep going... and I know sometimes that can be extremely hard because you feel like you’ve really been trying your best and nothing is happening; stagnant. Then you just lose it. I clearly did. I usually always have a coping mechanism to relieve some anxiety, but this time it’s like I didn’t know what to do? My reaction was blank. I was analyzing past mistakes and thinking nothing good was going to come my way. (My mind was spiraling). It’s like I was relying on people to make me feel better when I know for a fact I could easily have boosted myself up. What was wrong with me? What was I doing? I care too much about what people think of me, I’m overly sensitive, and I hate to admit it. But that’s okay. We are human beings. We have feelings. We hurt, we cry, we lose ourselves. It’s normal. Just get back up. You can do it. These troubling days were meant to happen to me/you. The motions of life are inevitable. We can’t control what’s going to happen to us, but we can choose our attitudes and how we react to trials coming our way. You’ve been going through it; I get it. But as long as you wake up every morning and hear that heartbeat, you’re alive and one step closer to your destiny. Know this, if no one is supporting you, be your #1 fan. You hear this all the time- people hate to see you win. If the bulls*** gets too much, just fake it til you make it! Never let people see you sweat and never share your plans with the outside world. You’re confident; you got this.

Take a breather. Take it easy. Great things are coming- it'll all make sense eventually.

XO- Brit