Be Selfish + I Have No Idea What's Going On?

Sometimes you got to be selfish and focus on yourself. So that’s what I’m going to do, and I say this respectfully, do you need to too? It’s easy to get distracted by seeing what other people have and watching what they’re doing. (Instagram, FB, Twitter, LinkedIn, the new feature “Go Live” *cough cough* basically ALL social media platforms). Don’t do this because it’ll cloud your judgment on yourself. You’ll start to over analyze your worth and think you’re not up to par or good enough (which you are). And who wants to hate when they look at themselves? (Smh, not me). But I’ve been there. There are times when I can say social media traps you in a sense. You feel obligated to keep up-to-date, to post or let people know how you’re feeling, what you’re doing, where you’re going, or who’s with you. (Everyone’s watching... even the people you wouldn’t suspect #lurkin). You want other people to know that you’re #livinyourbestlife… but is that a lie? That’s the thing with social media; it can become destructive, senseless; not real. We are living in a technological time. People don’t want to talk; they talk through their phones; they’re disconnected, it’s rare to find substance in human beings(so hold onto the ones that are real). We rely on apps and followers to commend us of our worth. We care what other people think of us. I didn’t want to live like that anymore. I don’t want to live like that, so I had to make a unanimous decision; change. I woke up the next morning and wanted to do things differently. I wanted to be better and do better; start over; funny that I made this decision on a Sunday. I’m lost. In a sense, I’m searching for something, but I don’t know what I want yet? I don’t want what I’m searching for to get me off track; like how many followers do I have? Who’s watching me? How do they think of me? Do they like what they see and read? How much longer God until I pop off? What kind of person am I aiming to become? Society is quick to change us, but I would never become a replication of the status quo. I was constantly rushing, on the go left and right searching for answers. I had God, but I had no direction. I was trying to maneuver and finesse the way of life, but we all know how that goes. I got stuck and turned back to phase one. So here I am. Still alive and a new chapter begins. I don’t know what’s going to happen next? I don’t know where I’ll be in a month’s time? But I know I’ll be working on myself, on my goals, on my craft. I’m very optimistic about what’s to come. I know I’m heading on a path to righteousness. We all have a dream like the great MLK did. So tap into it. The best game is trial and error. Fall down, get back up. Take steps of faith. Be vulnerable. Take a chance. Get out of your comfort zone. I don’t know what I’m doing, do you?

After a tremendous amount of unexpected occurrences that have happened to me, I realized something. We have to go through it, to grow through it. I’m starting not to take any day for granted; to live in the moment and to appreciate what I have now. What are you appreciative of? What gets your blood going and flowing? What are you doing right now in this current moment other than reading this post? Are you working on your goals?

I believe in you just as much as I believe in myself.

I’ll be back!

XO- Brit